The World At Large

So, I've been very introspective and reflecting on things going on in my life, both good and bad.  As everyone knows we all have our ups and downs in every situation in life and there are things to be leaned from both.

Years ago a really good friend of mine introduced me to a group called Modest Mouse.  I liked it, but I wasn't completely convinced until recently.  I was in my room, otherwise known as my "mansion" and one of the songs came across my itunes.  My jaw dropped and I felt like I was able to completely identify with it.  It is almost as if the song was written specifically for me, specifically for my life and I haven't been able to stop listening to it ever since.  Its called The World at Large by Modest Mouse.  Below is the YouTube video with the lyrics written so everyone can understand.  :) 

This song reflects portions of my life that occurred in Wisconsin, my travels, Miami, and where I am now.  It addresses advice that I sometimes get from friends and family about settling down and staying in one place.  Its not always a choice.  Sometimes the universe decides your plan for you and you can't be happy unless you just go with it.  I particularly like that parts "Went to the porch to have a thought.  Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop."  Meaning that sometimes when you think you've found the place where you are going to sit down and relax you just can't. You have to keep moving.  

Also, the next line, I think is one of the most important in the songs.  It doesn't matter where you are, where you go, or when you come back, you will always have your friend and family.  And your true friends/family are the ones that you can go months without seeing and once you are in the same room its like a moment has never past.  "You don't know where and you don't know when. But you still got your words and you got your friends."

"I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want.  Did I want love? Did I need to know? Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?"  This part of the song talks about all those doubts about life and questions that we ask ourselves about the normality of the different situations in which we find ourselves.  I know I haven't accomplished everything that I want to with my life, and I know that's ok.  I don't exactly know what I'm missing, but I continue to search for it.  I'm almost 30 and everyone around me is in relationships, married, or heading in that direction.  That doesn't look bad, but I don't know if that is particularly for me.  But at the same time, what fun would it be if I had the answers to those questions.  :)  I am in an undertow... sometimes its scary, sometimes overwhelming and sometimes you just feel like your stuck swimming as much as you can without getting anywhere.  But it just feels natural for me to let life take me where it will. 

Last but not least, the last verse I would have to say is my favorite quote.  "I know that starting over is not what life's about.  But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.  My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so loud."  

I would love to hear your thoughts about the song and your opinions about some of these reflections.  Thank you Angi for bringing this into my life.  :)  Also, if you have questions or need more of an explanation to certain parts please do not hesitate to comment and ask, I will reply.  

Les mando un gran abrazo a todos mis amigos y familiares!  Les amo!!